A shock of fear runs through the mind! There is no way you can ask someone to help look for him, as he would likely not respond to his name. Matthew would also not understand what he’d done, nor the danger in which he’d put himself.
 
Have you ever been in a room full of people – yet felt completely alone? That is often how I felt when in a public place, with my son. Without warning, Matthew would do something completely bizarre or behave in a typically autistic manner; instantly feeling completely alone and isolated, while being surrounded by other people, who simply had no idea, let alone any understanding, of what had just occurred.
 
No book will write itself! So, despite my ongoing depression and writer’s block, over those earlier years, I somehow found the emotional strength, to continue with my journal writing; maintaining a regular diary of Matthew’s unusual behaviours and autistic meltdowns. Documenting many of his wonderful achievements and continued progress over the following years – the teenage years.